I’ve been disappointed with myself lately. More so than usual. Given how often I feel I could do better (at this, that, and the next thing) I suspect I would have made a good Catholic. I have the confession part down, but I’m not great at the whole praying, penance, attending church, and general religious…
Category: Dear Diary
State College, PA
I never gave much thought to psychology and emotions and relationships and baggage until I got divorced and started dating. I assumed we all had baggage and that some of us were carrying it better than others, but that everyone was either trying their best, or in a state of deep denial. Of course, I…
A Strange Start to the Day
I assume what I’m feeling this morning is a combination of anxiety and boredom. The benefits of routine, or more precisely, the challenges one faces when routines are broken seem to be hitting me this morning. The weather isn’t great. Periods of strong wind and driving rain. I woke up at 3:30 and tossed and…
Restoring Some Balance
Soft blue skyHelium balloons float up awayBroad daylightBut we’re sunflowers in the rain Those are some lines from the song “Helium.” The song begins with a mutual break-up and the the lines 9:09 / You gonna call it or am I? I’m still listening to the new Glass Animals album on constant repeat. Apparently, it…
Hooked and Swagger
I’m not one to spend much money on a lot of “things” for myself. I will spend on experiences – meals, drinks, travel, shows, music, books. For my birthday I treated myself to some Memphis BBQ and I bought the new Glass Animals album, Dreamland. I had heard one or two of the songs on…
This and That, but Mostly This
I started off this morning writing a blog post about unconditional love. I’ve been talking with a friend – a woman I dated a few years back. In the course of our conversation she asked would I be able to trust my ex-fiancee again, would I be able to have her back in my life?…
Transience
There’s a new family hanging around downtown. They have that transient look about them – a little free range and rough worn. They’re a young family, maybe in their early to mid-twenties. She has blond hair with streaks of green. He carries the big overstuffed backpack and wears camouflage pants. He looks ex-military with a…
Nothing to See Here 8-6-20
I’ve heard this type of weather, mid 80s and no humidity, is rare for Memphis in August. I love it, but it also makes me feel even worse about not taking full advantage of it. I get outside, but I feel like I should get even more outside – as if that’s a thing. Gorgeous…
Remembering Paris and Other Engagements
One year ago today my sweet little cat, Paris, died. I sat with her in her dying moments. It was an awful night. She’s been on my mind on and off throughout the day. She was a pain in the ass, bossy when she wanted to be fed, petulant at times, but also as friendly…
Working Different Angles
Sometimes the colors are even better after the sun has gone down. Sunday night I went for a run with one of my friends and then we grabbed a bite and a drink at an outdoor restaurant/bar, Loflin Yard. We made our way over to the river to catch the last light of day, and…