When you truly connect with another human being, you reach a strange physical, emotional, and mental place where you’re not quite sure where you begin and where they end. You’re lives and being become intertwined. Your motives for wanting good for them and wanting good things for you become one and the same. Their needs…
BE THE PERSON YOU WANT TO FIND
Well before I met my ex-fiancee, B, I had spent a lot of time dating. I had a few relationships that were intense for a few months before crashing in their own special way. I also had a lot of one-off dates as well as a handful of things that fell in the 2 or…
WAITING: THE BRUTALITY OF ADORATION
Today I read a poignant and well-written essay on waiting – specifically as it relates to love. It referenced some modern anxieties (waiting for the good morning text in a new relationship), but also brought some heavy-hitting thoughts to the topic citing Walt Whitman, Roland Barthes, Dorothy Parker and others. As I read, I found…
TO HAVE A PURPOSE
Writer’s Block… not to be confused with that small eastern European contingent writers’ bloc. And wouldn’t the title be funnier if it were “To Have A Porpoise” I’m often reminded of that line from the James Tate poem “Teaching the Ape to Write Poetry” “you look like a god sitting there, why don’t you try…
POEMS ABOUT HOME
Today I walked in to a cafe to sit and read and write a bit. I’m clearly not blogging every day, and I’m not even writing off site every day. Trying to meet new people has taken up a lot of my time, so has going out to eat, and listening to bands. I still…
A CAR
This past weekend, I flew home to get my car. After more than a few frustrating setbacks in trying to get out of Memphis (couldn’t get a LYFT/Uber/Taxi, pouring rain, rat ran across my shoe, got to gate just in time, plane had mechanical issues and flight was cancelled, etc.) I got home, packed the…
CARLOS
I’ve missed a few days of writing/posting. I’ve been busy – pursuing fun, eschewing discipline… I’ve been in Memphis for just over 4 days. I’ve seen lots of live music, had way too much beer, missed my ex-fiancee, B, more than I imagined, met lots (ok, maybe a handful) of new people, and learned a…
PAUSED – MEMPHIS
Already, I’m feeling like a let down when it comes to this writing every (or nearly every) day thing. I have not written for a few days – mostly because I’ve been driving to and settling in Memphis, TN. I officially moved in yesterday (10/17) and have been unpacking and getting my bearings. It was…
MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS DAY
Thursday 10/10 was mental health awareness day. I wasn’t aware. That morning I sat at John’s Auto Body waiting for them to look at my car and fix the rear bumper which had been fixed once before (long story – hit by drunk driver). The TV was on at John’s and was tuned to Good…
ANOTHER META (MUCIL)
Again, skipped a few days. Not for lack of content. And now, it’s late. I’m tired. I feel obligated to say something. I don’t think I could do a good job. So write about what I should write about? Friday (yesterday) was my last day at United Way. The cards my co-workers gave me were…
WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY
Yesterday I railed against the notion of work. I ended saying if not work, then what. It seems wholly appropriate, perhaps even healthier, to spend time thinking and writing about what makes me happy…. A colleague of mine had asked me how I went about my recent job search. How did I explore my options?…
TOO MANY BIG THOUGHTS
I’ve had trouble sitting down to write (have skipped some days lately). I’ve also been skipping working out (what is this, post resolution February?) More specifically, I can’t quite focus in on one topic on which I might expound…. all the more reason to write – to practice the discipline of getting to the heart…