I’ve started my morning like most – waking up too late and too lazy to exercise. Fed the cat, fed the Matt. Drank my coffee, edited some of my writing – mostly last night’s post. There’s more I want to say on it, but I’m intentionally holding back. I tried to think about what I’d…
VERONICA AND THE WARS WITHIN
Before moving to Memphis I had started reading Veronica by Mary Gaitskill. I had come across some clippings from the book on goodreads – I was, I’m sure, looking for quotes on love or loss. I remember coming across this one and thinking this, to some extent, is my ex-fiancee, B. I wanted to know…
RECAP 12-3-19
I didn’t write this morning – was out too late last night. I’m not sure what all I want to tackle… I’ve been spending so much time making edits at B’s request, and contemplating the subject that I spend most of my time contemplating, that I haven’t really talked much about what I’ve been up…
WILLIE
For quite some time, the night before Thanksgiving has been one of the biggest drinking nights of the year. Everyone has off the next day, kids are home from college, people are in town visiting, friends come back together. I was bored and alone and decided to see what Memphis had in store. I walked…
LOVE HEALS
I think this is something we all know – intuitively: love has the ability to heal. In my post The Measure of Love, I referenced the book Hold Me Tight. In it, the author talks about the 7 conversations partners need to have and the vulnerability they need to share. The book is entirely about…
CLIPPINGS 12-1-19 (HOME)
Last night was not a good night for sleep. I tossed restless most of the night and finally got out of bed around 5 am. I had my big boy breakfast, and have been at the computer not writing for the past hour. I can’t settle on anything to write, at least not now. Thumbing…
I AM NOT THE HERO: REFLECTIONS ON CONFIDENCE
In another post, I published my dating profile. I have absolutely no interest in dating, but it’s by far the easiest way for me to meet new people – though I do ok out at bars and social situations. My profile is effective at getting dates – a little less so in getting friends (that…
THANKSGIVING 2019
For the first time in my life, I was not with family during Thanksgiving. For the first time in my life (other than when I was a baby, I’m guessing), I did not have turkey on Thanksgiving. For the first time I can remember there wasn’t a TV with football on in another room on…
THANKSGIVING 2018
Ever since getting in to the habit of writing every day, I’m finding that I want to spend more and more time writing. I will always struggle with the self criticism, and I will always struggle with the question – why should anyone care? I can’t answer that question, other than to say, you shouldn’t…
PET PHOTOS
From time to time, I’ll click through when Google and Facebook serve up my memories to me. Because so many of my photos from a year ago were related to my ex-fiancee, B, it’s often a bittersweet experience. Every once in a while, I’ll get pictures of the pets – usually happy, also sometimes bittersweet….
DETAILS AND NARRATIVE
As I mentioned yesterday, B, my ex-fiancee, wrote to me on Friday night. She found this blog. She’s upset with the amount of detail in it, and that it has real names and faces – mainly hers and mine. She’s emailed again and wants to know why I can’t just use initials, and why I…
A QUIET TYPE OF COMFORT
Last night my friend Stacy and I went out for drinks and a bite. I met up with her and two of her friends, a slightly older lesbian couple. We went to South of Beale, a local bar just down the street from my office. It was a really nice evening, and her friends were…