My ex-fiancee, B, once wrote on her blog: when i don’t write every day, words devolve into lists, a sense of freedom lapses into the default of routine — and it gets more and more difficult to practice poetry again. we all know there is some peace to living with head full of white noise. it’s…
LEAVING
Tonight I head back to Memphis. It’s been an enlightening few days. As I drove back to South Philly , the Philly skyline was stunning. If you were to scroll through the pics on my phone from the past year, you would see lots of these photos. Every evening, I made the trip from Bucks…
HONORING SOMEONE ELSE’S SADNESS
I did not intend to write about online dating on Christmas Day. It felt both cheeky and frivolous. At times, I wanted to spend my day in solitude thinking. Thinking about the people B lost and misses. So much of my blog has felt like self pity, that I thought today might be well-served thinking…
THE BEAUTY OF BANAL PLATITUDES
For the past three mornings I’ve sat at the kitchen table at my dad’s house where I’ve dipped toast in sunny side up eggs and drank my coffee and ate my bacon. On the wall opposite of where I sit, next to the light switch is a little placard that reads in cursive: Live, Laugh,…
THE QUIET FULLNESS OF CHRISTMAS EVE
Today is Christmas Eve. For me this has been one of those days that always symbolized quiet and beauty. Today is the birthday of my first girlfriend (we were together seven years). Christmas Eve was usually a raucous affair for her family – she often had to clean the house in order to prep for…
WHAT I CHOOSE TO WORSHIP
I’m somewhat obsessed with the idea of romantic love. For a while now, I’ve tried to figure out where this obsession comes from. I’ve also tried to figure out where my notions about love come from. I’m a complete sucker for it. Feeling this way causes a little bit of shame for me. This past…
GIVING CARE
Yep, it’s that time of year… sniffles and coughs, aches, grogginess, malaise. I felt it coming on Wednesday night. Now, I’m in the throes of it. Stuffed up and tired, I don’t feel like doing much. Writing will probably be a challenge. Getting out to see people will also be a bit of a challenge….
100 PUBLISHED POSTS
This morning I published my 100th post. Technically, it’s slightly higher, there are a couple I took down for editing and never put back up… I had meant to write a 100th post for my 100th post. Here’s to 101 (clinks glass). For me this is an accomplishment. I’ve never stuck to writing this consistently….
EARLY RETIREMENT
I don’t feel like going to work today. In fact, there are lots of times, I’d just as soon not go to work ever again. Life outside of work (with the proper resources) seems like it could be so much more fulfilling. I’d love to travel more. I’d love to pursue some other things (reading,…
LEARNING TO SLOW DOWN
It’s late, I’m tired, my mind isn’t as clear as I would like it to be. I will have to edit and add and delete in the morning… Tonight I went out with my friend Ali. She’s another woman I won’t date but met on a dating site. She’s from California. She has a daughter…
CLIPPINGS? 12-15-19
I’m not sure I’m up to writing tonight. I’ve been sitting at the computer since I got home… not really doing a whole lot of writing. I decided instead, I’d post a mish-mash of photos and links, and quotes and videos…. These are the things going through me and my head lately. Starting with Nick…….
NOT GETTING OVER THE HUMP
How to get over the hump….? Like lots of nights, tonight I went out to listen to music. Single guy, at the bar, lots of couples around. It’s hard to watch other couples be affectionate. It makes me think of my ex-fiancee, B, being affectionate with her new boyfriend – that kinda sucks – it’s…