A few weeks ago…. god, who can even keep track of days or weeks anymore, I wrote a post, “Circle Back.” It was about an ex-girlfriend, D, reaching out, and a woman I know, C, who had gone back to her boyfriend. I ended that post questioning why some of us (I’m certainly in this…
Category: Love
THOSE WORDS UNSAID
Last night, thinking about my ex-fiancee’s late husband, I had said I was going to try to use this space for something thoughtful. I sat down a few times to try to write. Feeling like it’s not my place got the best of me and the words wouldn’t come. I suspect they will some day…
APRIL 11
For me, it’s hard not to acknowledge today – this date. This time last year, it was a Thursday, my fiancee, B, had gone in to the city to run some errands and go to a counseling session. It was sunny, the trees were starting to bloom. When she came home, things felt different and…
REMEMBER THIS
Just after finishing my last post, and editing a few others (I always find typos and ways to say things better), I went on to Facebook to…. well, do whatever it is we do on Facebook. There are a few people on Facebook that I consider to be kindred spirits. We may not talk much…
WANTING TO BE MISSED
Today was a day of getting some stuff done. I did laundry, changed sheets, looked for jobs, secured letter of termination from insurance company, read a bit, cleaned shower, exercised, etc. etc. Any writing, until now, was either editing the post from last night, or jotting down some notes from when I used to take…
ADVICE TO A FRIEND
I was supposed to go to a concert tonight. It was canceled due to the COVID-19 stuff. As I took my walk down Main St., I thought about going out for drinks and texted my friend Stacy to see if she’d be up for it. I almost always feel like grabbing a drink when I…
BIRTHDAY BONANZA
Today is a birthday bonanza. I know at least four people who have birthdays today – including my ex-wife. Facebook will remind me to send birthday wishes – I’m not always good at that and I usually ignore Facebook. Aside from the occasional social media “like,” I’m not really in contact with many or any…
UNDERSTANDING THE OTHER
I haven’t been posting much in the morning this week. There’s no real reason for this other than I haven’t been writing as much in the morning – or what I’ve been writing hasn’t been finished. I’ve been reading a little bit about how different writers work and what they consider to be good output….
FISH BRAIN
For as prolific and almost buoyant as I felt two days ago, I didn’t write at all yesterday. I’m not even sure I jotted down a single note. Instead, I suppose, it was a day of intake (books, articles, videos, experiences, sunshine). I spent my morning taking care of some bills. I lost my main…
RELATIONSHIP ADVICE (ESTHER PEREL)
I need a word for these non-dating casual new friendships that I develop from time to time. Many of them follow a pattern of a few deep-ish conversations that can’t be sustained over a long period of time. They’re not therapy sessions, they’re not quite comparing scars, but more along the lines of matching up…
IN SEARCH OF LOST… KEYS
Since I was mentioning Proust earlier, I figured I’d play off of the In Search of Lost Time thing. More than once, I’ve tried to write about time – it’s the only thing that just marches on – it gives meaning and urgency and definition. How we spend it and who we spend it with…
DISAPPOINTMENT AND LOVE
Tonight’s one of those nights when I don’t quite feel like writing a journal style entry, and yet only have journal style thoughts. Last night I finished reading Veronica. Holy crap, it was a pretty great read. It took me way longer than it should have. It’s not the type of novel that has a…