The days slide in to each other… this was happening before the pandemic, but I still kept time of weekends based on being able to do a bit more. Now very few things distinguish one day from the next. It’s like being in the shower and getting so caught up in a thought that I…
LET IT BE
I often find that reflection leads to deeper reflection. For me, it also tends to see-saw between seemingly contradictory ideas and feelings. I was struggling this morning to write about how I feel like I should be doing more… I can’t even define the context. The impetus came from thinking about how I’ll describe this…
THE PARADOX OF POTENTIAL
I’ll preface this post by saying, the words don’t seem to want to come out this morning. Quite literally, I feel like I’m forgetting certain words or struggling to pick the right words. What I hope to write about, what I’m trying to write about are these competing urges to sit still (Buddhism) and to…
WANTING TO BE MISSED
Today was a day of getting some stuff done. I did laundry, changed sheets, looked for jobs, secured letter of termination from insurance company, read a bit, cleaned shower, exercised, etc. etc. Any writing, until now, was either editing the post from last night, or jotting down some notes from when I used to take…
FAILED MEDITATIONS
Tonight was another night when my mind was all over the place. I read a bit more of the book I started. Loved this passage – almost spit my drink out. It’s about an Irishman on his first trip to New York in the 70s. I boarded a bus amid the swelter and noise. Later…
NEW BOOK: A HAPPY LITTLE DISCOVERY
Last night, having finished the book of poems I was reading, I went to the bookshelf looking for something new. I have a lot of books, but most of them are still boxed up because my stay in the apartment was supposed to be temporary. The plan was move down here, get the lay of…
GOOD AND RIGHT
Sometimes, the day just falls in to place. Today was one of those days. Nothing special happened, but the things that happened all felt good and right (mostly). I had a decent breakfast and spent the morning reading and writing. I’ve been trying to finish one of the books of poetry I’ve been reading, but…
…AND DAMMIT, PEOPLE LIKE ME
Two nights ago (Friday night), I hopped on a video chat with my friends. There were seven or eight of us on the call. It was nice to see faces and just do what we would have done at a party – which is drink and either hang around the kitchen or sit around outside…
CLAMMING
It feels arrogant to consider myself a writer or an artist. At best, I’m a normal dude (though I initially, accidentally typed dud) who happens to write a little and has an appreciation for artistic endeavors. I say this because I’ve spent the morning (after breakfast and reading the news) on the sofa with a…
A SMALL DISCOVERY
While I ate my dinner of frozen pizza, fries, and broccoli, and after I checked the news on covid-19, I read a short article on 7 fiction books that change the way you think. I stopped short for a moment at number 5 – Ask the Dust by John Fante. Just a few days ago…
HEY (COVID) NINETEEN
Despite some of my efforts, I still spent a good bit of the day consumed by and consuming news on the pandemic. There is still the not-so-great feeling of facing these things alone. I’m not terribly worried for myself, but I also don’t have those close relationships that people rely on in times of stress…
ADVICE TO A FRIEND
I was supposed to go to a concert tonight. It was canceled due to the COVID-19 stuff. As I took my walk down Main St., I thought about going out for drinks and texted my friend Stacy to see if she’d be up for it. I almost always feel like grabbing a drink when I…