I changed things up today and went for a run this morning. The weather was just about perfect and had that early morning feel of a soon-to-be warm summer day. It’ll get up to 80 degrees this afternoon. There was a nice breeze, the sun was out, the air wasn’t yet heavy with humidity or…
VOICE (CODA)
After hitting publish this morning on a post that took me a lot longer to pull together than I expected, I had some lunch, did some editing clean up, and went out to the balcony with my afternoon cup of coffee and the book of essays I’m reading. Naturally, picking up in the last three…
SOME THOUGHTS ABOUT VOICE
No matter how loud our voices may get, all arguments begin with silence. I never did get back to the post I was working on yesterday morning. In the various arguments that I have with myself, or ex-friends, or the world at large, or my ex-fiancee, but mostly with myself…. I had punched myself out….
A CYCLE OF DOUBT AND DEFENSE
I’ve had a post percolating since yesterday afternoon. Just before, or maybe after dinner I wrote: Here we go… yet another dive in to personal psychology. There is, for me, some value in it. For one, I like to think about the chain of events and thoughts that lead down a path. I also think…
GOING ALL IN
Half way done my second cup of coffee – though like the weather, it’s cool and a little unappealing, I opted for the sofa and blanket and book this morning. I’m feeling unkempt and a little unruly… which for me is still pretty tame compared to most. When I started this book of essays, “Walking…
A CONVERGENCE OF SUBJECT AND SELF
In paying attention to mood and self and allowing myself the freedom to drift about, I allow myself to be a little proud of miniature battles hard fought and won. In plain language, I could have easily let the night slip away in to surfing the net, swiping profiles, lamenting circumstances, or any other number…
WRITING AND SLOW REVELATION
I seldom get through reading a few poems, or an essay without wanting to hop on my computer and write something. Similarly, I seldom write something without wanting to take it all back or revise it or clarify. I’m thankful that the collection of essays I’m reading seems to support this behavior, this back and…
DON’T WRITE IN THAT
I started a post this morning as a follow up to my second post from yesterday…. I may publish it, I may shelve it. It was not what I had come in from the balcony to write. I actually wanted to write about writing in books… something I never do. This is that post. This…
VALIDATION: IT’S COMPLICATED
Sometime around 5am Nick the cat jumped up on the bed to let me know he needed attention or food or just that it was unacceptable for me to continue sleeping. He’s partially blind, and his claws get caught on everything as he walks. When he comes to wake me up, he stumbles over my…
BREAKFAST (ROUTINE)
I like it. It may be one of my favorite parts of the day. Even living alone, it seems quieter than the rest of the day. Even without the hustle and bustle of a job to prod me forward, it seems more peaceful than the rest of the day. My head isn’t jumbled with a…
HAPPY TO SERVE
Is there such a thing as irreconcilable differences? Is there anything that patience and understanding can’t wait out or help? I’m sure I’ve offered up some sort of an answer to those questions over the course of however many posts there have been. Before I get to that, a brief recap…. I woke up tired…