Today felt like a productive day. I enjoyed reading and writing in the morning, researched jobs, applied to two, posted a new poem, and submitted some poems for publication. I’ll meet my goal of new poems written for the month and I should be able to meet my goal of submissions. All of that in…
META (MUCIL), PART II
Writing is a very solitary endeavor. It requires time and space and concentration. For me, it’s really easy to get lost in my own head; to become hyper-aware of the process, the metacognition that’s taking place, the rabbit hole, the infinity mirror of writing about thinking about writing about thinking ad nauseam and ad infinitum……..
PORCH EDITION (SOME THOUGHTS CONTINUED)
I suppose this is technically the balcony edition. It’s a beautiful night here in Memphis. After an afternoon run (and shower) I opted for a beer and some music on the balcony. The hair is getting a little long – not sure I’ve actually “done” it with product or anything for a while. I love…
CIRCLE BACK, PART II
A few weeks ago…. god, who can even keep track of days or weeks anymore, I wrote a post, “Circle Back.” It was about an ex-girlfriend, D, reaching out, and a woman I know, C, who had gone back to her boyfriend. I ended that post questioning why some of us (I’m certainly in this…
THE COURTYARD HAS NO CHARM
Still a little groggy (not quite done my first cup of coffee) and trying to think about what to write as well as this overall process (and benefit or not) of writing everyday. I’m not doubting the benefit, but I am wondering if writing for the sake of writing gives me a false sense of…
STANDING ROOM ONLY
Notwithstanding the crappy dream and lack of sleep, I’ve been productive and had a bounce in my step (so far) today. I finished the book of poetry I was reading (Robert Hass, Human Wishes). It was one of the better volumes I’ve read – every few pages I felt inspired to write more and by…
EXHAUSTED
It’s 2:30 in the morning. It wasn’t until about 1:40 that I was finally able to fall asleep. Legs felt like they needed to stretch and while I could feel my body was tired, I could not fall asleep. Less than an hour in and I woke from another terrible dream. There was nothing unusual…
SUNDAY MORNING WANTING EVERYTHING
Overwhelmed with choices on how and where to spend a lazy, rainy Sunday: on the sofa reading or napping? in the bedroom reading or napping? at the computer playing games, looking for jobs, writing? Looking at my phone a gazillion times for… ? Yeah, it’s one of those days. I’ve done almost all of those…
3:52 TRAIN TO SATURDAY
Sorry for the odd title, I couldn’t come up with anything. Some days, like today, a little after lunch and part way through the cup of coffee I drink out of habit, comfort, and in an attempt to keep me awake, I curl up on the sofa and nap. I’ve never been much of a…
OBSERVATIONS ON A SPRING DAY
Less than half a mile away the men in bright yellow vests work on a five story condo. The cranes in the air circle, their long wide arms carry slabs of concrete and oversized planks of sheathing. Above the background beeps of backing trucks and moving parts, drills and saws work their way through metal….
FLOW
I intend this to be short (rereading it after the fact, it’s not)…. I’m thinking about flow. More specifically, I’m thinking about how I, and maybe other people, disrupt it – a self-sabotage of sorts. I was up and fed and through my morning routine pretty early. It was a nice morning to sit with…
THOSE WORDS UNSAID
Last night, thinking about my ex-fiancee’s late husband, I had said I was going to try to use this space for something thoughtful. I sat down a few times to try to write. Feeling like it’s not my place got the best of me and the words wouldn’t come. I suspect they will some day…