For a few days now, maybe even the past week or two, I’ve felt a kind of malaise and/or lethargy… perhaps more of spirit than of action. For me it’s been most noticeable in my writing, or lack thereof. It’s been difficult to write every day. Something in the feedback loop feels off. I haven’t…
MEMORIAL DAY 2020
Today is Memorial Day. I’m not sure I ever gave the holiday much thought. I’m not sure I give or gave it its “proper” due. Being a bit of a peacenik, I tend to shy away from those things that celebrate or honor our military. I haven’t read enough philosophy to have a strongly reasoned…
A FEW DAYS IN PICTURES
I haven’t been writing as much. I don’t know how I feel about that or if I can pinpoint why. This morning I went for a walk, and my mind was pretty busy – on a few different things. I tried some walking meditation, but it wasn’t working. And decided to get out of my…
WALKING IN SHADOWS
I haven’t written or attempted a new poem in a while – probably going on close to two weeks. Perhaps not coincidentally, I’ve also been spending more time looking for jobs and learning and thinking about how I might be able to eek out a living as a freelancer or a consultant or both. I…
ON LOSS AND BALANCE
Yesterday was the 5-year anniversary of the passing of my ex-fiancee’s mother. I never met the woman, but in getting to know what I can claim to have known about my ex, and in spending a little time with her family, her mother was a larger-than-life figure and her impact on her family was visible…
WALKING MEDITATIONS (PICTURES)
Sunsets (and sunrises) never get old. Storm clouds bring their own sense of beauty and contrast.
WALKING MEDITATIONS
I wasn’t going to write today. Or exercise. Yet, here I am typing away and early this morning I went on a 2+ hour walk. If the weather is even remotely nice, I have a compulsion to get out. This is why the weather forecasts have been so vexing. I hate sitting in waiting for…
GRACE
I changed things up today and went for a run this morning. The weather was just about perfect and had that early morning feel of a soon-to-be warm summer day. It’ll get up to 80 degrees this afternoon. There was a nice breeze, the sun was out, the air wasn’t yet heavy with humidity or…
VOICE (CODA)
After hitting publish this morning on a post that took me a lot longer to pull together than I expected, I had some lunch, did some editing clean up, and went out to the balcony with my afternoon cup of coffee and the book of essays I’m reading. Naturally, picking up in the last three…
SOME THOUGHTS ABOUT VOICE
No matter how loud our voices may get, all arguments begin with silence. I never did get back to the post I was working on yesterday morning. In the various arguments that I have with myself, or ex-friends, or the world at large, or my ex-fiancee, but mostly with myself…. I had punched myself out….
A CYCLE OF DOUBT AND DEFENSE
I’ve had a post percolating since yesterday afternoon. Just before, or maybe after dinner I wrote: Here we go… yet another dive in to personal psychology. There is, for me, some value in it. For one, I like to think about the chain of events and thoughts that lead down a path. I also think…
GOING ALL IN
Half way done my second cup of coffee – though like the weather, it’s cool and a little unappealing, I opted for the sofa and blanket and book this morning. I’m feeling unkempt and a little unruly… which for me is still pretty tame compared to most. When I started this book of essays, “Walking…