Empty shoes line up where the day ends – by the sofa near a lamp and a stack of books. This is where, sometimes, a second life begins. An evening life. A life without shoes or sidewalks or gas pedals and gravel roads. A life where there’s nowhere left to go, until tomorrow.
Daily Fifty-Two: Mar. 22, 2023
Silver sky, silver sky, man sits under and wonders why. Wonders why, wonders why, his eyes can see his heart can sigh. Heart can sigh, heart can sigh, he greets the day, decides to try. Decides to try, decides to try, to catch the wind and ride it high. Ride it high.
Daily Fifty-Two: Mar. 21, 2023
Stripes and solids. Colors gleam, roll smooth on green felt. A pool ball feels perfect in size and shape and heft. The evening is full of angles and banks and side pocket magic. One shot hits three rails before kissing the eight. Roy’s place has a wood burning stove, an eight-foot table.
Daily Fifty-Two: Mar. 20, 2023
The black pickup truck with the rattling muffler rumbles into a parking spot in front of the dollar store. The decal on the back window reads, “this is what white privilege got me.” Trash bags and empty water jugs fill the pickup bed. The driver’s backwards cap boasts the stars and bars.
Daily Fifty-Two: Mar. 19, 2023
Dumb cane stalks bend and crane like scoliosis spines angling towards the light. Is this clay pot too small? Are the roots tangled and knotted through soil and perlite? Are they coiled around the base like a dormant snake? And what about us, did we think to check our roots? Change pots?
Daily Fifty-Two: Mar. 18, 2023
I half-expect a shotgun blast to startle the dozens of blackbirds perched in the tall, barren tree – or maybe the first volley from a twenty-one gun salute. In a firing squad, one of the rifles has a blank round. Plausible deniability. Nothing startles the birds. They leave of their own accord.
Daily Fifty-Two: Mar. 17, 2023
The lunchtime coffee is bitter and stale. It tastes like the color of the cement sky. Cinders tumble in the ocean of my stomach. The cars on the thoroughfare hurry through the rain, spraying misty puddles in their wake. The backyard neighbor feeds his chickens and steals their eggs while they’re distracted.
My Dog with the Abby Normal Brain
Every step in the process of re-homing my dog feels like a loss. Reaching out to the shelter. Answering their emails. Scheduling a vet visit. Scheduling an intake visit. Every single step feels like I’m saying goodbye. Every step feels like a betrayal and a failure on my part. If I have a savior complex…
Goats on Van Ness
On the drive home from work today I passed a hillside where a few goats were grazing. Sometimes, the goats are out, and sometimes they’re not. I like seeing the goats. When I see them, I say (in my head) hello goats. Today, shortly after I passed, I tried to imagine the goats in the…
Daily Fifty-Two: Mar. 16, 2023
Tie-dye swirls in glassy blue color the horizon. Higher up, the faintest hints of white suggest the apparition of clouds, ghosts that can’t fully materialize. The day is bright. It’s almost spring. The birds know it. I don’t remember when or where I learned the name for crocuses, but there they are.
Daily Fifty-Two: Mar. 15, 2023
The midday crash wasn’t a crash. BMW. Maybe a curb. I could hear the skid, see the smoke and spinout. Minutes later, the car rolls clanking, slow, undetected into a parking lot. Wheel bent in, rear bumper hangs. No other cars involved. Two men exit, pace, eventually leave. Nobody called it in.
Hefty Cropping
The other day, an old friend texted a picture of the two of us and wrote, “you used to be hefty.” I sent back a photo of Wilford Brimley and said now I’m old and hefty. Fun fact: though he looked much older, Brimley was not quite 51 years old when Cocoon was released (I’m…