Category: Writing

The rabbits scurry, hop, and hide as we approach. The dog perks his ears and sharpens his gaze. Night lifts slowly giving shape to shadows that become bushes, trees, and piles of leaves. Another day, another day, another small attempt at pulling back the veil on my many desires, my minor deceptions.

A lone pine forms the left side of an open picture frame around an alpine-clear sky and luminously full moon. The bottom of the frame is foreground: arcing maple treetops, houses, and terra firma. There are distances to contemplate. The moon feels close and the air so big and breathable between us.

Above the rooftop ridges, the hunter’s moon low and large glows white with pocks of blue and gray. Every day, and twice on Mondays, it gets harder to play the game. Morning email blasts: how to have a productive week. Who defines productive? Perhaps we’re different hunters in search of different prey.

Frost paints black shingled roofs crystalline white. The sun melts them back to black. I don’t remember last night’s sky or saucer moon. I forgot to pause, forgot to look. Like a peek-a-boo, the day advances ready or not. The sun climbs and I’m incapable of slowing this down – stopping tomorrow.

A few dark clouds stretch and drift with the morning wind. They look like battlefield smoke from that movie scene when dawn rises, and rubble is on the horizon. In the coming light, smudged and roughed up hands will sift. Is that what dawns are for? The sifting through of yesterday’s calamities?

Blushing peach and rose, the bright-eyed sky reminds me of oversized, mid-80s, women’s sunglasses – white zinfandel chilling in the fridge. Clear crisp and translucent cool, the sparkling light graces the tops of morning trees warming red and gold. These are the colors I’ve been missing, the air I’ve longed to breath.

The variegated leaves of the dumb cane annoy me. The only way to describe their mottled greens and whites and shades of in between is through words like mottled or variegated. Bought as an accent during a remodel, it always seems thirsty or dying. A reminder – we’re all thirsty and dying.

A string of days absent of color tests the limits of gratitude. Muffled light still counts as light: another dawn in the making. These are the flat days usually reserved for November and its cemetery rains.  Small breaks in the clouds show blue behind a paraffin sky. Change is on the way.

The soggy gravel road squishes underfoot where the pine needles clump. Grooves and dips have widened into potholes. The puddles reflect October grays. The problem to be mulled and maybe, one day, solved… Where to dump and how to spread the stone? Already, my back hurts. I can taste the chalky dust.

The batting from the stuffed chicken dog toy isn’t much different from the batting from the stuffed monkey dog toy – which is to say that maybe we’re all just indiscernible stuffing inside. Tear us apart and pull out the squeaker and we, too, might collapse on the floor deflated, gaping with holes.

It’s hard to imagine that the sun, hidden somewhere, can also cast this veil of gray light which doesn’t seem like light at all. There are no bright spots in the sky, no singular points of focus – a light without direction or warmth. Willow branches dangle and sway in a windy rain.

The morning rain beads and pools on the newly sealed deck. Drops hang from the table edge reflecting the silver light of an overcast sky. In my head, a song plays. I switch up the lyrics to make them about sitting, waiting, and watching the rain. Have patience, everything will be alright.