The problem with being a social chameleon is that sometimes you don’t always have a good sense of who you really are. I’ve alluded to feeling like two very different people in and out of relationships. In a relationship, I am all about my partner, and have very little need for socializing outside of that…
Category: Life
STORIES OF TRIUMPH?
Tonight is one of those nights, when the subjects, not the words, won’t come. I think I’ve managed to write nearly everyday for the past month – which may be the longest I’ve kept something like this up. Of course I don’t exercise at all – I suppose something had to suffer. Some of the…
CHRISTMAS 2019 (BUT MOSTLY 2018)
It doesn’t feel like Christmas time – at least not for me, not this year. That’s ok. I’ve been wanting and not wanting to write about this for a little while now. Wanting to write because it’s on my mind. Not wanting to write because, as I was warned, the holidays would be tough. It’s…
DOING JUSTICE TO OUR COMPLEXITY
I’m slowly falling in love with reading and writing. There are days when I want to call out sick just to have time to read, write, feel, relax. After last night’s post, and this morning’s edits, I realized that I’ll have done work related networking functions four nights in a row (Sunday – Wednesday). And…
MEDITATION ON IMPATIENCE
I’ve started my morning like most – waking up too late and too lazy to exercise. Fed the cat, fed the Matt. Drank my coffee, edited some of my writing – mostly last night’s post. There’s more I want to say on it, but I’m intentionally holding back. I tried to think about what I’d…
VERONICA AND THE WARS WITHIN
Before moving to Memphis I had started reading Veronica by Mary Gaitskill. I had come across some clippings from the book on goodreads – I was, I’m sure, looking for quotes on love or loss. I remember coming across this one and thinking this, to some extent, is my ex-fiancee, B. I wanted to know…
RECAP 12-3-19
I didn’t write this morning – was out too late last night. I’m not sure what all I want to tackle… I’ve been spending so much time making edits at B’s request, and contemplating the subject that I spend most of my time contemplating, that I haven’t really talked much about what I’ve been up…
WILLIE
For quite some time, the night before Thanksgiving has been one of the biggest drinking nights of the year. Everyone has off the next day, kids are home from college, people are in town visiting, friends come back together. I was bored and alone and decided to see what Memphis had in store. I walked…
LOVE HEALS
I think this is something we all know – intuitively: love has the ability to heal. In my post The Measure of Love, I referenced the book Hold Me Tight. In it, the author talks about the 7 conversations partners need to have and the vulnerability they need to share. The book is entirely about…
CLIPPINGS 12-1-19 (HOME)
Last night was not a good night for sleep. I tossed restless most of the night and finally got out of bed around 5 am. I had my big boy breakfast, and have been at the computer not writing for the past hour. I can’t settle on anything to write, at least not now. Thumbing…
I AM NOT THE HERO: REFLECTIONS ON CONFIDENCE
In another post, I published my dating profile. I have absolutely no interest in dating, but it’s by far the easiest way for me to meet new people – though I do ok out at bars and social situations. My profile is effective at getting dates – a little less so in getting friends (that…
THANKSGIVING 2019
For the first time in my life, I was not with family during Thanksgiving. For the first time in my life (other than when I was a baby, I’m guessing), I did not have turkey on Thanksgiving. For the first time I can remember there wasn’t a TV with football on in another room on…